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Another Journey – Fractured Ankle

So, what’s a writer to do, when they’ve fallen over and fractured their ankle? Well they should write about it, of course!

In relation to that then, think back 28 September, Grand Final Day, to us Aussies, in the late afternoon, when my husband was inside, listening to the loud celebrations on the television. I’d gone outside to close the gate, as we usually do in the afternoon.

I lock the gate, turn, then look at our dog Missy, take one more step, and then crash, down I go, lower leg twisted weirdly, and pain. The try to get up, intense pain, worse than ever before felt! I call Missy, who was looking worried, and try and fail again to get up, then shuffle painfully on my bottom to the Hills Hoist, hoping to get up using that.

I well as loud as I can for Graham, my husband, and keep shuffling, the pain a huge star blasting my brain, yelling, yelling, until Graham comes out into the backyard. He tries to help me up, but realises the situation called for professional help, and calls for an ambulance.

The ambulance arrives, things happen and I end up at the Gawler Hospital, twenty kilometres away.  I have extreme pain relief to help with extreme pain, things settle, and then, after a long wait, another ambulance, to another hospital, the Lyell Mac, in Elizabeth, about fifteen kilometres south of Gawler.

Once there, pain relief happens, nursing happens, planning too. I am settled in a bed, with three other patients. I see a surgeon, and am advised about wriggling my toes to help reduce the swelling of my ankle, and I am settled, in wait for what would come next.

Boredom, ding! bang! people talking,
I remain here, still wriggling & wiggling my toes,
and learning a truth about time –
Hospital Time is not the same
as normal time, & plans made
by hospital staff, while worthy,
are as brittle & breakable
as a bone, or two bones at once.

On Monday, I think it was, it is decided my ankle will be operated on, at a different hospital. Or that may have happened on Tuesday, not really sure. All of this time, pain and pain killers have joined together to wrap time up in a mist of who knows what.

I learn that one of the women there in the same room used to live less than ten kilometres from where I know live. We throw people’s names at each other, and pass the time in reminiscence, and in pain-relieved sleep.

At some stage, I have a CT scan, and some x-rays, in preparation for having my right ankle operated on, fixed. It seems I have fractured my tibia and fibula of my right ankle, and damaged ligaments in the ankle too. The level of swelling is a problem, and the surgeon would be happier it it were reduced.

The next day, it’s decided I will go to yet another hospital, so another ambulance ride on I think Thursday morning, and I settle into a far more swish hospital bed in the Ashford Hospital, which is much further away from home. More waiting, more pain relieving drugs, I have the operation, waking up to some weird things happening before I eventually work out what’s been happening, and so rest and rehabilitation.

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My new best thing has become the pain-relieving drug Tapentadol, and I become a part of hospital life, as if I’d always lived that way. I have eventually shucked off the hospital gown I was put into at the beginning, and am wearing my own flannelette shirt in it’s place. I have visitors (family only) life continues, so so slowly, with hospital bed, and hospital life my now norm …

Time morphs into something quite different, as the time between ‘obs’ becomes the important way to go through the business of the day (and night). I have a visit from the physio and learn about my best new thing, a Knee Walker, that I will use to help me to get around, until I am able to walk again.

I’m fairly sure I’ve missed out things, but some things probably don’t need to be dwelt upon. Let’s just say I was very glad that I eventually had a way to get to the ensuite toilet that came with my private hospital room. The earlier method of relief, of relying on a nurse with a bed pan is something I’ll be happy to never have to use again!

With plenty of time, and no-one much around there was certainly some thinking on things going on. But with the pain-relief, it may not have been really deep thought here’s one of the morsels of wisdom from when I was at Ashford hospital:-

 

New hospital, nice sheets, brain 

switches on. An insight gained, 

or reason why Nurses do that, 

with their pen. They stick it in 

their ponytail the way they do

so when they do the obs, it’s 

right there when they need it, 

Obsviously!

 

 


My ankle is in a halfcast back slab, and is bandaged. I wriggle my toes whenever I think of it, and I am so grateful for my lovely husband who is doing an amazingly good job of looking after me. If I didn’t have Graham here, it would be terrible. 

And finally, my broken bits are put back together, and the only thing left was to go home again, and relax into a new, much reduced life, of resting and rehabilitating. And that’s where I am now.  I have  Knee Walker and a walking frame on hire, and I am able to use these to get from sofa to toilet and back, and then off to bed at night.

I have a rehabilitation plan, paid for by my private health insurance (and I’m so glad I have that to cover all of the medical costs!). This will provide me with 14 visits from a combination of nurse, occupational therapist and physio. So far, I have had a visit from a nurse, and will be seeing the occupational therapist tomorrow. On Thursday I’ll see the physio, and the work will begin, to get myself all ready to come back better than ever!

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Writing About Painful Things

Life happens, sometimes it’s good sometimes it’s bad, and sometimes it just is. On Saturday, it was definitely bad, the thing that happened. I stupidly incurred the wrath of the Slipper Fairy, by wearing my inside slippers outside, instead of using my outside slippers, or some other appropriate footwear.

So I was tripped up by the Fairy, and as I landed, I fractured two bones in my right ankle, and damaged my ligaments, and painfully. It hurt when I tried to get up, because a fractured ankle is a painful thing, I definitely know that now, if you try to put weight on it.

But after three ambulance rides, and three hospitals, an operation, and lots of drugs to assist with pain and things, I’m finally home, seated on my own sofa, looking at my own TV, with my dog, and my husband, finally!

I’ve had lots of lying time, lots of sleeping time, and have written a few new bits and pieces, which I felt comforted by, so they were definitely therapeutic to me. Writers write a variety of things for a variety of reasons, and for me, in this recovery time, therapy is definitely up there high on my list.

So, broken ankles hurt, the Slipper Fairy is a mean bitch, and I have definitely learned my lesson well! I had lots of books with me while I was in hospital, but only really read one of the, and that was Massimo Pigliucci’s book “How to be a Stoic”, which certainly helped me in this less than lovely ‘interlude’.

I have no complaints at all about any of the things that happeded to me, the ambulance rides were as good as you could hope for, the people in the various hospitals were all nice to me, and helpful. I feel privileged to have been looked after so well.

I’m lucky because I am financially able to pay for private health insurance, so can afford to pay for all of these things, without going broke. I certainly feel for those who are not so fortunate.

In my rehabilitation times, from now on (for six or so weeks, I’m told), I will be thinking more, being a good Stoic, and I hope writing lots more. This interlude may put a halt to my thoughts of becoming a ‘Cozy Mystery’ writer, who knows.

I certainly had the thought that my little town of Talloola, which the proposed Cozy Mystery series is set in, must have a hospital, because I can write about this, now that I’ve spent time living in three different hospitals!

Perhaps my main Character, Meredith will also enrage the Slipper Fairy, and pay the price for it!

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The Writer as Juggler

Today was not the day for being a novelist, not during the day, anyway. I was the Editor of a community Newsletter, rather than being a Poet, or the writer of a Cozy Mystery book series …

This is how things go, sometimes, we all have certain responsibilities and we prioritise things, and do the best we can with all of the things we need to do … It’s a frustration, but at least I’m in the fortunate position of not needing to do a paid job, so I can arrange my life to suit myself, to a far larger degree than many other writers.

The newsletter needs to be ready to send off to be printed before the end of the week, for preference, the poetry is going to be less in focus for the time being, and the novel may happen if I don’t have access to the household’s PC (because my husband uses it too).

I did manage to write, or rewrite more like, around 500 words that are in the chapter breakdown I began yesterday or the day before, where I’ve been writing notes for chapters, or cut and pasting shorter pieces to their best spot in the novel I’m doing most of the work on. This will be book 2 ‘Kissing Cousins’.

I need another day to put in more novel work, I think, perhaps tomorrow morning dedicated to novel, and leave the newsletter until after lunch, when things I’ve requested to go in there, should have arrived.

It’s a busy writing life, and I love it, juggling from non fiction to fiction, newsletter to novel, and some poetry in there as well. And blogging and other Social Media too, of course. Not as much as that though, as sometimes. A bit of Twitter, and more Facebook than there should be …

It’s all going well though, and as I said, I love it!

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When Work is Huge Fun

I spent almost all day yesterday, and into the night, working on various bits and pieces of my upcoming “Cozy Mystery” books. More words were added to the one I’ve written the most for, lots of work done on characterisations too, and more ideas for some of the titles already named.

This is so much fun, that even if I never ever actually get any of the ten plus books in the series planned, it’s still worth it. I can call it therapy, and revel in the amazing things my brain is doing, even with the damage my Chronic Illness (MS) may, or may not be doing to it.

I know more and more about the people in my stories, what they look like, what they fear, what their secret powers are, what their role is, and so on. As I learn more about my characters, more subplots pop up, for the various titles, and I’m working at putting relevant ‘bits and pieces’ in the correct story.

This is creative writing times twenty, putting together not one story, or one book, but a whole series of stories in books, and it feels like the best fun ever, as a writer. Creation of a town, its residents and writing about it in a new (to me as a writer) genre, and having fun doing it, what a life this is, wonderful!

I’ve found the thing I really feel I can go on doing for the rest of my life, and I’m loving it! My main character (Meredith Webster) is going to be my best friend, and my helper characters (Gert and Mister) and going to keep it all going! Murder in the small town of Talloola is going great, with Meredith there to find out Who Dunnit!

I created this town and these characters for the novel I’ve been writing (in bits and pieces) for a couple of years, but the Thriller genre wasn’t ‘thrilling’ me. But as soon as I changed it to the Cozy Mystery genre, Bang! It all started coming together beautifully well!

I’ve based my setting on one I know well, with the name and some details changed, to suit the story. Coming up with the various things, names, places, community details, these are the funnest thing, to change things at will, but always with an understanding of the real story, world building in small ways, creative fun for sure!

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My New Cozy Mystery Series – Some Bits & Pieces

“Being the oldest biddy in a town of old biddies isn’t easy but she’s doing it with grace and good humour!” This is Gert,who is one of the characters in my current major writing work in progress, which will be a series of ‘Cozy Mystery’ books set in the town of Talloola.
 
I’m working on creating books with gentle murders and small town politics, as well as a bit of footy talk, and there will be dogs, some anyway, who may be useful to my amateur sleuth, Meredith.
 
I’m excited about the idea of writing these books, and have a lot of planning underway already, just a few days after thinking up this idea …
This series of books feels like what I’ve been building up towards writing, for many years. There have been some sideways steps, that could have been failed attempts at writing in other genres, but were in fact learning exercises, and helped me to realise what I really wanted to write!

I have a main character I want to be good friends with, a maybe love interest I’m a bit in love with myself (I’m far too old for him though and of course I’m married my main character, Meredith, isn’t though …), there’s dear old Gert, and a nasty (and possibly corrupt) mayor who tests every boundary there is, and always gets away with it. And there’s the trans hairdresser, Steph, at her business “Hair It Is” who hears many things in her little hairdresser shop (and who may have some hidden knowledge about the Mayor’s life from before he ever came to Talloola, and there are many, many more interesting Talloola-ites.

Meredith has a big love of dogs, and dogs always love here, it’s almost as though they can read each other’s minds … (or maybe they can read each other’s minds, in some weird way).
I’m loving writing this, so far I have titles for more than ten books, and have begun my writing, with more that 5000 words written of the first book, which will be the second book in the series. I also have a few hundred words of the first book in the series written, and some notes for other titles.
I’m excited about this, did I mention that?!