Arts, meaning in life, Public Speaker, therapeutic writing, writing exercise

Being Normal Doesn’t Feel Like Me, And I’m Happy About That!

The idea od being judged as ‘normal’ is of no interest to me, I don’t ever want to be ‘normal’ it feels so limiting! I’m a Word Nerd (a term I’ve only recently come across, and I know willingly embrace it! Words are the thing that draws all of the best things in my life togerther.

From reading and especially writing, to talking, and performing, and of course thinking, Words are what floats my boat! I love new words and ways to say things, I love intellingent conversation, listening to clever radio is my idea of the perfect driving companion, some of the time anyway.

Lots of people I know, ad those I don’t know (yet), might say the same, but I suspect I might take all of that in more unusual directions at times, that many others wouldn’t envision ever doing themselves.

The most obvious one is probably the Art Installation I Created, and am now Curating (a work in progress, and I’n expecting lots more actuon will be coming along on that one later on this year. And of course my desire to do work as a Stand Up Comedian is probably not what the average 60+ year old wants to take up doing …

But I have plans at foot, and hope to have a lot of fun doing this one for sure. The idea of performing as my persona of Nanna Carreau fills me with happiness! I offer humble thanks to Martin Christmas for his assistance with getthing the idea of this persona up and running!

That’s me dressed as Nanna Carreau on the left, the man on the right Len Dix is far better known than me (in motorsport circles especially)

This occasion was in Mallala, when there was an afternoon of classic cars when one of the roads was closed and the cars were there for people to see and learn about. So, with encouragement from someone I know, I dressed up and Nanna Carreau and had fun, and gave some of those in the crowd a bit of a giggle too!

Taking opportunities is something I’ve learnt to grasp with both hands, and am enjoying where some of it takes me! Soon, there may be something happening for me in the Barossa, if things pan out well for me, and if they don’t there will be other times, in other places!

Having books, and doing things with, and in libraries, that seems to be quite a good thing to do! And given the fact that I like talking to others, and I have books and thoughts, and a somewhat interesting life, well I think so anyway, I should be taking about it to others!

And who knows there may be book sales to come of doing that! Book sales and author talks, as well as doing writing related workshops are all classic ways for writers all around the world to earn money.

I’m a writer, and I know about these things. I’m just not that good (yet) at the marketing side of things. I’m working on that though, and I hope by the end of this year, I’ll be much better at it!

I’ve had a life, and I’m still having one, a different one in new ways, and I’m loving it! Not everyne would say the same, and I’m sad for those people. Perhaps a session with Nanna Carreau would cheer them up, and make them laugh!

Arts, inspiration, New Ideas, starting a business, therapeutic writing, writing opportunities

Moving Forward, Slow & Sure!

I know what I want to do, and I know many of the people who can help me as I go. Having goals is one thing, but with action, a goal is just a decoration, amounting to not a lot that is very useful in terms of ‘doing business’.

The goals I’ve set for this year though, ones developed after reading a recent Journaling topic given by Nan Berrett on the Facebook page ‘Your Journaling Journey’ will be guide posts to assist me as I go through the necessary steps to make my business the best it can be!

The ten ideas I came up with in response to this prompt topic cover a variety of things, some of them concerning my business others more personal things, but it all blends into creative things for 2025!

This Journaling Journey has brought up many interesting thoughts and ideas, and I definitely want to continue with journaling once this 30 day program is all over.

This is part of our gate, which forms a part of the Redbanks RUST & FOUND Art Installation, which is going to be one part of the business I am going to start up early this year, if all goes as I want it to! I’m excited about this new direction I’ll be going, it feels like I’m finally doing what what my life has been leading me to!

So slow and steady wins the race, and I have my eye on the prize, which is to have a respected business doing a variety of creativity-connected activities that will bring in a reasonable profit for me (eventually).

This year is for setting it all up, next year though, let that be the year it takes off in good ways!

I’ve made some money from my writing over the years, but now, with many more things to do, I ‘m expecting more! An I nervous about starting a new business at my age? No! I’m almost 62 and that is the perfect age to do this!

So I’ m not nervous, I’m excited. Bring it on, I’m ready to make it all happen! Many thanks to the people who’ve been helping to get to this position, especially my Support Worker, Tereza, and my husband Graham! You are both great, and have helped me to be great too, or more than that, I am Awesome!

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Another Journey – Fractured Ankle

So, what’s a writer to do, when they’ve fallen over and fractured their ankle? Well they should write about it, of course!

In relation to that then, think back 28 September, Grand Final Day, to us Aussies, in the late afternoon, when my husband was inside, listening to the loud celebrations on the television. I’d gone outside to close the gate, as we usually do in the afternoon.

I lock the gate, turn, then look at our dog Missy, take one more step, and then crash, down I go, lower leg twisted weirdly, and pain. The try to get up, intense pain, worse than ever before felt! I call Missy, who was looking worried, and try and fail again to get up, then shuffle painfully on my bottom to the Hills Hoist, hoping to get up using that.

I well as loud as I can for Graham, my husband, and keep shuffling, the pain a huge star blasting my brain, yelling, yelling, until Graham comes out into the backyard. He tries to help me up, but realises the situation called for professional help, and calls for an ambulance.

The ambulance arrives, things happen and I end up at the Gawler Hospital, twenty kilometres away.  I have extreme pain relief to help with extreme pain, things settle, and then, after a long wait, another ambulance, to another hospital, the Lyell Mac, in Elizabeth, about fifteen kilometres south of Gawler.

Once there, pain relief happens, nursing happens, planning too. I am settled in a bed, with three other patients. I see a surgeon, and am advised about wriggling my toes to help reduce the swelling of my ankle, and I am settled, in wait for what would come next.

Boredom, ding! bang! people talking,
I remain here, still wriggling & wiggling my toes,
and learning a truth about time –
Hospital Time is not the same
as normal time, & plans made
by hospital staff, while worthy,
are as brittle & breakable
as a bone, or two bones at once.

On Monday, I think it was, it is decided my ankle will be operated on, at a different hospital. Or that may have happened on Tuesday, not really sure. All of this time, pain and pain killers have joined together to wrap time up in a mist of who knows what.

I learn that one of the women there in the same room used to live less than ten kilometres from where I know live. We throw people’s names at each other, and pass the time in reminiscence, and in pain-relieved sleep.

At some stage, I have a CT scan, and some x-rays, in preparation for having my right ankle operated on, fixed. It seems I have fractured my tibia and fibula of my right ankle, and damaged ligaments in the ankle too. The level of swelling is a problem, and the surgeon would be happier it it were reduced.

The next day, it’s decided I will go to yet another hospital, so another ambulance ride on I think Thursday morning, and I settle into a far more swish hospital bed in the Ashford Hospital, which is much further away from home. More waiting, more pain relieving drugs, I have the operation, waking up to some weird things happening before I eventually work out what’s been happening, and so rest and rehabilitation.

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My new best thing has become the pain-relieving drug Tapentadol, and I become a part of hospital life, as if I’d always lived that way. I have eventually shucked off the hospital gown I was put into at the beginning, and am wearing my own flannelette shirt in it’s place. I have visitors (family only) life continues, so so slowly, with hospital bed, and hospital life my now norm …

Time morphs into something quite different, as the time between ‘obs’ becomes the important way to go through the business of the day (and night). I have a visit from the physio and learn about my best new thing, a Knee Walker, that I will use to help me to get around, until I am able to walk again.

I’m fairly sure I’ve missed out things, but some things probably don’t need to be dwelt upon. Let’s just say I was very glad that I eventually had a way to get to the ensuite toilet that came with my private hospital room. The earlier method of relief, of relying on a nurse with a bed pan is something I’ll be happy to never have to use again!

With plenty of time, and no-one much around there was certainly some thinking on things going on. But with the pain-relief, it may not have been really deep thought here’s one of the morsels of wisdom from when I was at Ashford hospital:-

 

New hospital, nice sheets, brain 

switches on. An insight gained, 

or reason why Nurses do that, 

with their pen. They stick it in 

their ponytail the way they do

so when they do the obs, it’s 

right there when they need it, 

Obsviously!

 

 


My ankle is in a halfcast back slab, and is bandaged. I wriggle my toes whenever I think of it, and I am so grateful for my lovely husband who is doing an amazingly good job of looking after me. If I didn’t have Graham here, it would be terrible. 

And finally, my broken bits are put back together, and the only thing left was to go home again, and relax into a new, much reduced life, of resting and rehabilitating. And that’s where I am now.  I have  Knee Walker and a walking frame on hire, and I am able to use these to get from sofa to toilet and back, and then off to bed at night.

I have a rehabilitation plan, paid for by my private health insurance (and I’m so glad I have that to cover all of the medical costs!). This will provide me with 14 visits from a combination of nurse, occupational therapist and physio. So far, I have had a visit from a nurse, and will be seeing the occupational therapist tomorrow. On Thursday I’ll see the physio, and the work will begin, to get myself all ready to come back better than ever!

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Writing About Painful Things

Life happens, sometimes it’s good sometimes it’s bad, and sometimes it just is. On Saturday, it was definitely bad, the thing that happened. I stupidly incurred the wrath of the Slipper Fairy, by wearing my inside slippers outside, instead of using my outside slippers, or some other appropriate footwear.

So I was tripped up by the Fairy, and as I landed, I fractured two bones in my right ankle, and damaged my ligaments, and painfully. It hurt when I tried to get up, because a fractured ankle is a painful thing, I definitely know that now, if you try to put weight on it.

But after three ambulance rides, and three hospitals, an operation, and lots of drugs to assist with pain and things, I’m finally home, seated on my own sofa, looking at my own TV, with my dog, and my husband, finally!

I’ve had lots of lying time, lots of sleeping time, and have written a few new bits and pieces, which I felt comforted by, so they were definitely therapeutic to me. Writers write a variety of things for a variety of reasons, and for me, in this recovery time, therapy is definitely up there high on my list.

So, broken ankles hurt, the Slipper Fairy is a mean bitch, and I have definitely learned my lesson well! I had lots of books with me while I was in hospital, but only really read one of the, and that was Massimo Pigliucci’s book “How to be a Stoic”, which certainly helped me in this less than lovely ‘interlude’.

I have no complaints at all about any of the things that happeded to me, the ambulance rides were as good as you could hope for, the people in the various hospitals were all nice to me, and helpful. I feel privileged to have been looked after so well.

I’m lucky because I am financially able to pay for private health insurance, so can afford to pay for all of these things, without going broke. I certainly feel for those who are not so fortunate.

In my rehabilitation times, from now on (for six or so weeks, I’m told), I will be thinking more, being a good Stoic, and I hope writing lots more. This interlude may put a halt to my thoughts of becoming a ‘Cozy Mystery’ writer, who knows.

I certainly had the thought that my little town of Talloola, which the proposed Cozy Mystery series is set in, must have a hospital, because I can write about this, now that I’ve spent time living in three different hospitals!

Perhaps my main Character, Meredith will also enrage the Slipper Fairy, and pay the price for it!