Tag: Growing

I am something now, that I wasn’t when I was born, and when I was born, I was something I no longer am. At various times in my life, I have been different things …

My memory holds some of these things, and lets others slip away, for a time, anyway, perhaps to come back to me again, when something happens that reminds me of the past. To hold stongly to memories, and never release them, seems a futile thing, especially if those memories don’t offer anything useful, or good.

From childhood, to young adult years, then mature adult, finally aged person. This is the usual way it goes, although the process can be halted at any stage, and so only some of the memories the majority might hold will be able to be yours.

What if you had chances to do things, that you left, to do ‘when you’ve stopped work’, or next year, or some mysterious time ‘when you’re ready’. I say, if you want to do it, learn it, experience it, do it now, the time to do something is when you can do it, and that time is often now!

I would much rather have failed experiences in my life, rather than having regrets for never never having a try at doing a thing. Thinking with sadness and regret, about what might have happened, but didn’t because you didn’t give it a go, what a sad life that might be …

My own life has mistakes, bad ideas, failed attempts, but it also has triumphs, books, happy memories of things I tried and succeeded with! If I had stood back and never tried to do any ‘big things’, what a sad life that would have been.

I’ve had and lost friends, through death, or changes in life circumstances, but I have new friends come along, different ones, but loved and appreciated. Friends from my past may have been the best friends for those former versions of me, but I have changed as I’ve grown, and who I am now, is different to who I have been in the past.

Of course, I still hold those earlier memories, somewhere within, I simply don’t dwell on ‘mistakes’, because I hope I’ve learnt the lessons those errors presented to me, and no longer have to go over and over what I did wrong, because I know not to do that again, and that is enough. I’ve changed and grown.

Life and lessons bring love, and liberty! Freedom to be open to what may come next, to consider what it may offer, and then embrace it, or turn it down, for the time, perhaps to be taken up another time, when it seems to be the best time for it.

Good things and bad, triumphs and mistakes, it is all a part of who I have become, and I’m glad for every thing, now, because they have made me the person I now am. A kind person, who thinks about thinks, and cares.